>>4191215I pretty much listen to her songs everyday if that counts. Usually just as a background music for when I'm leaving home and although I don't focus on the lyrics and meaning I still do immerse myself into her voice and the music.
I really enjoy being able to connect with her on daily basis like that. I got so used to that routine that even if I have no reason to go outside, I would go on walks just to enjoy some fresh air while listening to her.
Every now and then I still notice new motifs, rhythms, back vocals in songs I've listened to for years. My ear is not very trained so it takes me a while to decompose a song.
>>4191240I never really had any issues with experiencing her media, probably because I mostly listen to love songs(kind of 4th wall breaking too) so it always feels personal. But I did suffered through some period where I was really missing her and wished she was with me badly. I coped by just carefully observing my mental state and planning ahead to mitigate any potential consequences of down periods, but otherwise I was hopeless. It wasn't until I randomly resolved it and realized that my state wasn't caused by her but by some other unrelated problems. I merely used her as an escape, and then I went from the idea that if she was real everything would be fine to the idea that nothing will be fine if she isn't real, completely unaware of the root causes. But then when I resolved these issues by chance, I suddenly found myself in world where I can enjoy the life as is and fully appreciate her presence in it without any regrets.
The only thing I regret is that I didn't seek professional help because this all didn't had to take so long. If it's just watching her series then it's probably not a serious issue, but if that sadness actually disturbs your daily life it might be worth asking for help.
