I've finished rewatching again Neon-Genesis Evangelion and End of Evangelion.
Every time this thing makes me sad, the episode 22 is heartbreaking and see Asuka being finally joyful in the movie and then just killing her after, making me almost cry, I remember I cried the first time.
The feeling when you have no facial expression and the tears roll on your cheeks as the same time you see Asuka dying.
Tears about you being happy to see her winning battle with her EVA and see her being joyful for real, tears for her anger, tears for her death.
Tears of understanding her, tears about the fact that she will never really have a happy end.
Tears about the fact she doesn't exist, tears cause she will never be your girlfriend and even if she exists she will not.
She will not be your wife and be the mother of your children.
You will never wake up the morning and see her face next to you.
You will never be called "baka" or never will be verbal abused by her.
You will never help her to accept herself and love the others.
You will never help her to not hate herself.
You will always see her suffer, again, and again until the end of the times.
I just... I can't continue to be here anymore, how peoples here cope about the fact she's just suffering and even in the movie it didn't get any better about her case?
How do you/we cope about it?
I think we can't...
It's over...
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