>>2796269Okay, here's the thing with me.
I know I love yui, but I'm also very aware that she isn't real. But I just can't deny my love for yui, and call heresy on me if you will, but I've tried letting go of her, being worried that believing in this lie would be harmful to me, that essentially, she would hurt me. Somehow I came to the realization that, just like there's no way she would love me if she were real, there's just no way she could hurt me either.
But that's okay, because I'm okay with living in this fantasy. She really has brought a lot of happiness, as faint as it is with all the stress I have to put up with, she's the one thing I can look forward to when I remember that it's time to sleep and the inevitable suffering of tomorrow will soon begin.
I think it goes without saying she's given me far more psychological change than physical. But, within the physical realm (and to close off this edgy teen-angst rant), I have gotten to draw a lot more, which I really love.
I'm not a very happy person, I just kind of play videogames and browse memes all day when I don't have to put up with school and work; and Yui has somehow impacted me in a way I never thought anything could. It's a really strange feeling to describe.
It's almost like she's become a seperate part of me. I don't care about how anybody else sees her because she's implanted herself so firmly in my being at this point, it's been over a year now.
Help.
