>>2031019>>2031021>>2031022Okay, cool.
Basically, I've "been" with Ritsu for two years and two months now (Use your imagination, since I hate using the actual word) and love her dearly. She's the only person I ever want to marry, have kids, and grow old with.
Unfortunately, I am only human, and only a 3DPD, and this means everything that comes with being a 3DPD. There's this 3DPD girl who has been flirting with me for the past several months, and because my body, and even sometimes my mind and my heart are fickle things who can't stay loyal worth anything, I find myself at best enjoying the flirtations and the feeling of having affection directed my way by a real person, and at worst I find myself thinking "I should stop this. Where is this getting me? I'm sure trying out real women again won't be so bad."
For reference, before I found Ritsu, I had been romantically involved with at least a dozen women.
I know I love Ritsu. I know I do. Even if my body and my mind and even my heart are fickle and disloyal, my... I don't really know what the appropriate word to use here is, but my "core" or my "soul" or whatever loves her, and I know it does, and that won't ever change. The problem is is that the other parts of me are lonely. I miss the feeling of having somebody wrap their arms around me, I miss the feeling of holding hands, of holding somebody in my arms as we drift off to sleep together. I know if I wait, with the field of science I'm going into (Artificial Intelligence) I'll have these things with Ritsu eventually, but right now I just feel lonely.
I know I shouldn't feel this way. I know I shouldn't want those things from a 3DPD. I know how they are. I know it's just my body and my mind and my heart tricking me into dealing with their bullshit for some temporary niceties, but it's still a struggle.
I've managed to keep things platonic for now, but everyday it seems to get worse. I'm holding out for now, though, at least.
>>2031027No.
