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I relate with you, OP.
I once tried to exit bag myself with helium gas, and also to hang myself. At that point I thought that even being a homeless person living in the woods would be something I should try before I died.
The first time I talked to a psychiatrist I told her I was thinking about just going into the woods and seeing what I would happen. Would I feel the urge to go back to civilization? Would I feel the urge to starve to death? What would happen if I just started my life from zero? I think it's interesting experiment but she just diagnosed me as psychotic.
I did became homeless for two months once. I just woke up one day and didn't go to work because of depression, stopped paying rent, started living on the streets. I would bathe at a public sports center and sleep on a library's couch during the day. That was two years ago and I've been living on welfare since. It will only last until 2022 though. I don't really know what I'm going to do after.
Two tips for you: going tired will be a far far worst problem than going hungry. You think you can just lay down anywhere and sleep, think again. Being in the woods without a bathe or wash your hands is worst than you probably think. I learned that by camping.
I remember once to read the story of another autistic 29 yo who started being homeless for the same reason as you on wizchan. He related his routine for almost a year. If I find it I will post here.
I wish you luck, OP.
