>>2662696I don't even know how to explain it. I have all the high end gear to go on some of the tallest peaks in the world, I have the technology to not get lost, I have everything planned out, yet I get so freaked out whenever I start thinking about encountering other people on trail, I start freaking out so much and I freeze. God knows how I'll ever achieve my dreams of becoming an alpinist when I don't even have the courage to go on a 5 mile loop, I'm so fucking scared. I've been thinking about just going for it this weekend when it's usually filled with people. Just driving take, taking a couple xanax, and fighting through the panic attack and anxiety that will ensue once I step out of my car. If I get lost fuck it, I have SAR insurance, I have a tracking device, and I have gear to survive in the forest for a week, that might be the only way to beat this fear.