>>1203712This... this was beautiful. I feel like you are me born in another time and place. Thanks anon. I felt it. I listened to the (great) music while reading your posts and I could see, feel and smell it.
I saw you lying there, under the stars. I felt exactly what you described. This whilst I have (of course) never been in that exact situation. I too, however, have been bullied, have divorced parents and am actually 18 right now so it really resonates with me. I could feel how you felt, how time disappeared while watching the stars with your friends thinking about the past, a girl, but without the pain, numbed. You described seeing things in a different light. Stress slowly slipped away and you just... were.
It felt like I was in an endless room. I was forever small in an endless universe realizing how small and insignificant I, and my being, was. This however, not in a bad way. I felt... numbed. Like it was okay. I could feel my pain dissolving into the endless space I found myself in.
Again, thanks anon. I wish I was there now. I wish I could lie there, under the starry night, next to you. We would look at each other, not uttering a word, then looking back at the sky. Together, letting our past behind us. Letting our past, struggles, failures and successes being dissolved into endless space. Numbed, stuck in time, we would lie there. Pitch blackness, but with the light of billions of stars shining upon us. The stars are patient, understanding. This whilst 'Enjoy the Silence' from Depeche Mode silently plays in the background. Letting go of my past and just thinking. Being there, and thinking. Vivid memories from all periods of my life. Numbed, yet feeling an overwhelming sense of beauty. Of grandness. Of... life.
Your post meant a lot to me. It would also mean a lot to me if you could reply to this post telling me if you think whether the feeling I got whilst reading your post resembles the feeling you have whilst thinking back on it.
