>>1676753>Owners have shut down over night telling literally no-one >Just bought new car in anticipation I would soon have enough money for college>Fug>Manage to find job at friends father-inlaws company >Work there for about a year, Car breaks down have to sell it>Back to square one>Friends father-in law sells company>Once again realize no-one is to be trusted, only myself is to be relied uponSomewhere around the time i got laid off from the restaurant is when i started /out/ again and I realized i didnt want to rely on anyone else. I would rather be alone and fail then be with others and succeed.
When I am by myself I succeed or fail on my own terms, No one dictates what I do except for me and every victory is my own, And every failure mine this is what I liked about the restaurant and leading people. I can't trek somewhere into the middle of nowhere just to find out someone screwed me and its out of my control.
Going out with others is alright I have a group of friends I regularly /out/ with but even they fail me.
The outdoors is the truest test of oneself and the purest way to live unhindered by modern bullshit. Just wish I could've figured it out earlier.
