>>2311420>What's your life like?Mostly shitty, but I´m trying to make the best of it.
I can only be like 15-30 minutes away from home, depending on how I feel. If I´m not alone, and there´s a car nearby, things are way better though.
>What is your relationship to /out/ stuffI collect military surplus and /out/ equipment, to motivate myself to get out there. Didn´t work so far, but I hope things get better once the COVID restrictions lift, and I get my drivers license. I´m 28, and also have a bunch of other diagnosed mental illnesses, which prevent me from progressing in life.
I still hope that things get better. I lived this way for 15 years now, so why stop. I´m constantly working on myself. For example, I go out at night, and take walks around the neighborhood, until I can feel the agoraphobia and anxiety kick in, then I turn around and walk home. Sometimes I almost pass out, due to fear. Little steps.
I hope someday I will be able to go /out/ alone, and do an overnighter or 2.
Anyway, I´m trying to make the best of it, and don´t try to victimize myself. Things will be better.
