tl;dr: used to be on meds before the military because of rough upbringing and thought that I had got well but post-pandemic market and such made me "fall ill" again. Decided on quitting uni to pursue trades and to hike more.
I remember going off on a schizo rant some time ago and some guy telling me to "take your meds" which I've never taken seriously but for once I considered it. Now I have an appointment with my doctor and a psychiatrist and going back meds. Thanks /out/!