>>13871076you got another 10 years to build better friendships. if you recognize all your shortcomings, if you believe you are a failure today, then it's time to take action to correct that.
suicide is not how you correct it.
whatever you believe happens in the afterlife, the only thing you know for sure is that you are alive right now. do not squander it.
i do not know how hard things are for you, but even if you are full of flaws you deserve to be better than that.
stay strong, do not give in to the permanent darkness. the light is here with life, you got to fight for it.