>>14225347Last night I got a phone call telling me Ryan Smile had passed away.
I cannot tell you how emotionally broken I am that in one year and this is the 2nd person in my life that’s lost their battle with mental health.
I can’t cry it’s that draining. I really loved this guy. He despite that the internet will tell you was LOVED back stage and was wanted so much. He would make every single person smile, be mad at, then smile straight away.
Every phone call I had with would always end with him I’d always tell him I loved him.
I’m angry that so many people helped destroy you from the inside without knowing full stories, weather it was stupid chants that would make him feel unwanted or online hate.
I remember him crying after a York Hall show cos someone told him to jump off a bridge. He was never a bad buy, he made bad decisions but always made up for it.
That was the last time I saw him with my own eyes and thought he had finally came to peace with his beautiful wife and child.
I wish he would have phoned me and bothered me for 4 hours cos there is no time I wouldn’t of sacrifice to have you still here.
I love you mate.
Have Uptown Funk play up there when I see you next.
-Ospreay's ig
