>>10692114I haven't had good restful sleep since April or so. I am also chain smoking and chugging coffee and overall dropped any concern for my health. When you're not a kid anymore and you treat yourself like shit it annihilates you. I'm so fucked I don't even have the mental or physical resources to build a model kit. That's depressing. I'm sorta worried I might have some neurodegenerative onset or weird cancer 'cause I got a weird persistent feeling that something's bad with me. I'm having thoughts about the stuff I'm collecting with an implicit prospect that I'll die in a couple years tops which is unnerving. This year's been a really wild ride.
Thanks for reading my blog. I'll eventually finish that kit but it's taking me so long I wish I could just sit down for 3 hours and peacefully finish it.
