Well first off I'm a schizo so I'm not exactly at a good baseline most of the time. I'm also 37 so I'm older than most on here which factors in. I don't have friends. I've spent a couple of years on /qa/ and had gotten used to the generals there being a big part of my day. I didn't soispam. I think I only have like 1 or 2 soijak pictures on my ssd. Anyways it felt like a big part of my life has been missing over the past couple of days. I miss my friends I don't know the names of I would talk with on /nah/. I miss when something would blow up in the happenings thread. I just don't really have any friends and it feels like I just had a bunch of people leave my life all at once. I guess I'm mourning loss and pitying myself which also feels pathetic on top of everything else. Like it summons to the forefront the fact that I'm mostly alone in life and there's nothing I can do about it with my condition. I'm lucky to not be locked up. And as I get older it's only going to become less likely that I'm going to find people that would want to be friends with me. I'm just so alone.
