>>40042821I miss it.
I miss adventure, I miss freedom, I miss my friends, my family, my master
I know now I'll never see them again.
It's been 183 days in here, I've counted every single sunset in this barn while telling myself after each day that I can make it to tomorrow but there is a point where all my forced optimism can only turn into foolish naivety.
Every day I spend with Ditto is a living hell. I'm not even allowed to see the children I painfully bear.
How many more days must I go through this?
I cry out to master only for him to smile back as he takes another of my eggs and bikes cheerfully away. He knows nothing of the nightmares I'm forced deal with daily, HOURLY.
Or maybe he just doesn't care.
Who COULD care about me now? I've lost track or how many children I've birthed. This is all I'm good for now and it hurts. It hurts so much. I wish I could've done contests for him, I wish I could battle for him. I wish he could love me like he does his other Pokemon but all I'll ever be to Master is a sack of meat to him and his Ditto
I will be gone by the time Master reads this and my only regret in this act is having to take this unborn egg with me. At least now I finally get to do something together with my child.
I'm sorry i'm such a terrible Mother.
I'm sorry i'm such a terrible Pokemon.