>>45270320Adopting's a meme. That/raising a kid in general's only fun between 4 and 11, the "teaching and raising" phase, when they actually want to listen, hang around, and legitimately love you. Before that it's an endless poop fountain, and after that it's angst and a need for independence despite being financially dependent on you for the next 15+ years. Couple that drama with the fact that you're not their real parent, and it's a nightmare.
Save yourself the trouble, just keep it a happy fantasy in your head.