>>39365161I'd like to think these past 10 years since my death haven't been all for naught with the immense amount of time, research, and introspection I've put into understanding what the fuck happened. It would be very defeating (but I guess a bit freeing) if it were all for naught, and that its just a sad case of someone to put a square peg in a round hole, that legitimately cannot understand that square peg cannot go into round hole.
>>39365185That's another problem, I can't accept that there's no logic, since there's logic in everything. That's why I'm in this situation that I am and I sincerely want someone to either tell or prove to me that "Illogical things happen here's the proof" or "You've cursed yourself to a loop because you gave yourself brain damage where you cannot literally understand why Square Peg cannot go into Round Hole"
The data I've amassed out of the time and introspection, is it valid or just logic built out of vapor? Am I insane in trying to find logic, or am I insane from refuting the logic that there is no logic to it?
That right there is my philosophical bane. I'd rather much have someone sent me to the psychriatric ward and say "You have brain damage, stop existing in society you clearly crazy person" than have to accept that there is no logic, because to accept there is no logic to admit and likewise surrender to Insanity.
