>>49979930I rarely use weed. I spend $15 dollars on it a month. I’m not a stoner. I’m too poor to be one. I wish I could be one, but I only rarely get it. Instead I whore myself out for money to buy food like a responsible person. I buy lottery tickets because it gives me the only hope I have that hasn’t led me to killing myself sooner. I have no money to save.
I got diagnosed with lethargy and depression before using any weed. I’ve been off of weed for weeks and I’m suicidal. I was suicidal before using it.
People should stop blaming video games, the Internet and drugs for causing people to want to die when they just don’t want to work. I find that attitude disgusting. I never have wanted to work. I hated it in school despite trying so hard and thought that if I grinded I could retire early.
That’s looking like it’s never going to happen now and that I’ll be stuck working a normal job to survive for most of the rest of my life. Excuse me if I get high once a month to feel something.
Sometimes people need to understand someone’s baseline is misery and suicidality with nothing contributing to it except being expected to work. I don’t want to live because of work. It’s always been about work. I worked like a dog for most of my life and still hated it. I was suicidal when I was a conventionally successful person. That’s just how I am. I never want to work again. That’s it.
