>>54939469oh yeah that's probably why I have the fantasies I have.
not to get too personal but I want to vent: I've had several trauma's over the years from several things: abuse, neglect, emotional/literal blackmail, feeling/being threatened, constantly ignored, being exposed to vile stuff, bullying, you name it, granted (some of) that stuff doesn't happen now but lately I've been alot more anxious due to certain events in my life that weren't really anyone's fault has brought out my old coping mechanism I had as a teen which seems to have only gotten worse/popping up more lately not helped by the fact that I push people away due to said issues (that and my trust has been tarnished one too many times)
my general fantasies seems to follow the same format of being taken care of, loved, general affection, being told it's okay to be/do X in a safe environment that I control (9 times out of 10 being a mansion wherein I am taken care of and being something else for a little while)
