>>53920258I do understand. It isn’t possible to put nothing into something and get something out. It is possible to put everything into something and get nothing out.
I hear you, I do, but it’s just really hard. When I try to put myself out there, without fail, I hit a wall I can’t clear, and eventually people just beat me down and make me want to hide in shame. I would honestly rather crawl into a corner, curl up, and die than live like this. No matter what I do, if I get my depression managed, I’m always angry, and if I get my rage under control, I fall back into depression. I’m sure it isn’t IMPOSSIBLE, but considering how astronomically low my chances are, all the rejection and failure will likely push me to suicide that much sooner. I’m just tired of being frustrated and disappointed 24/7/365.
I only have one life to live and I just had to be born me :(
It isn’t that I have no redeeming qualities, it’s that I am no where near enough to normal height for them to matter. Honestly? Making friends is easy, and that’s fine for a while, but I hate developing feelings for someone. It always leads to pain. It just isn’t enough, because I desire more, and there’s nothing I can do to improve my situation. My limits are infuriating in a way few understand. Again, people think that’s funny >:(
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/15994722/#:~:text=There%20was%20a%20strong%20inverse,9%25%20decrease%20in%20suicide%20risk.
https://www.apa.org/monitor/julaug04/standing#:~:text=The%20findings%20suggest%20that%20someone,found%20by%20psychologist%20Timothy%20A.
https://www.glam.com/1278698/why-height-become-such-significant-factor-dating/#:~:text=More%20recently%2C%20the%20dating%20app,women)%20is%20not%20just%20anecdotal.
https://www.nicswell.co.uk/health-news/the-height-of-happiness#:~:text=Overall%2C%20men%20and%20women%20of,enjoyment%20in%20the%20previous%20day.
https://www.economist.com/graphic-detail/2020/02/19/in-politics-height-matters 