>>31944469>>31948749Thanks anons, your words really helped me a bit.
It may be obvious, but I suffer from some mental disorders after the hell I gone through.
Borderline syndrome, depression, suicidal thoughts. I hope this does not sound "edgy" - I just tell how the things are now. But day after day I'm still at this world.Even if I have low self-esteem and don't believe in myself or my skill and talents I still write stories. (Not to mention I don't show anyone, I'm too shy and of course trauma from childhood haunts me.) Writing really helps me with myself.
It probably will sound autistic as hell but it's actually nice to write about a world where I can achieve something, have loving family, house when I can feel safe and more comfy things like this. I think I call it "teraphy". Yet today I received another disappoinment.
I received a letter - I actually thought that my mother send me one from the jail
(I have birthday tomorrow, you see) but well, like always I miscalculated myself.