>>53919340I apologize, I understand dealing with me can be difficult. It just feels to me like you’re telling me to keep grabbing in to an electric fence with the vague promise that it’s possible it won’t shock me one of these times. I fundamentally disagree that belief is a choice, unless you’re delusional, which is just lying to yourself. There are things I would love to believe I just can’t. To explain why dating sites will not and cannot work, it’s 100% superficial. If I had a chance at all, it’d be irl. I don’t value kindness at all, and in fact, I’m wanting to slowly make myself colder, heartless, and more detached so I don’t care when people let me down.
Plus, stem cells, genetic engineering, and cybernetics can do nothing to help me, and to be blunt, the bitter and angry half of me doesn’t allow me to put in all that time and work to help a world that never offers me any compassion or understanding.
I doubt this will help and you’ll just tell me I’m wrong because that’s all anyone ever does, but fine. I’m ashamed to admit, but I’m barely 5 feet tall. I’m the size of a child. People will try and say positive things about me, but either they’re wrong, or they just don’t count for anything. Which leads into my point, c/m because I busted my ads off getting into shape and improving myself and being social and none of it counting even a little bit because I’m half a foot too short for anything else about me to matter, I decided I would never under any circumstances date or have sex with an overweight woman. If my immutable characteristics make me ugly, then their lifestyle choices make them ugly. I will not compromise on this ever, just like the discord shit, it’s principle.
I can list studies of how height absolutely determines your worth as a “man” and impacts your quality of life more than anything else short of severe disabilities.
