>>54424900I have a long history of liking this pokemon, and believe it or not it was not part of my sexual awakening.
I'm training the join my nation's special forces, but I am driven solely by complete self-hated and wanting to prove to myself that I am actually worth something. Apparently that sort of negative motivation isn't ideal, I was reading that a lot of dudes who get onto selection feeling negative about themselves will spiral and I can easily see it happening to me. Plus I don't have any trauma or whatever to fall back on. It seems every other dude applying lost their Mum in a car crash at 7 or some bullshit, but I'm just a normal dude. Further, I'm worried since I might have to apply for an upgraded security clearance and apparently, they do shit like go through your porn history, and man... I don't think I could meet another man's eyes as he reads that list haha. Whatever, I guess I'll just have to take it in stride if I make it that far at all. 