>>49979849All these reasons, is why I'm being a dick to you.
You've put in all this effort, all this thought in your death; but you haven't once thought of all the opprotunities you have if you take the chance to actually view them. You might be at a low point of your life, but you have all the power in the world to change that, you just have to start with today, and then the next day, and then the next day.
If you refuse all the possibilities, if you refuse all the simplest things, if you refuse all that power, because to you, your death means more to you than your life, that you are feel that killing yourself is better than actually giving yourself a shot, by flexing your power of freedom and opprotunity in living; then my initial sentiment still resides. Go ahead and piss away the one existence you have in all of eternity, because you are not in a good place in this moment of life. If you are so selfish, so self centered, and so stupid to give up the keys to your personal kingdom, because you don't have the strength to move forward; then my sentiment is still the same. I'll have no empathy, sympathy, and the responsibility will solely be on your shoulders, and no one elses. People will look at your blue face, your blue hands, and swollen feet, your popped out engorged eyes and they will shake their heads, say "Sad! Many much cases" and not even give you a second thought. The people you came from will look at your photo and feel pain and insulted, because you didn't ask them, you didn't tell them. You'll be a painful memory for them. Then, your body will be cremated, tossed into a riverbed or ocean, nameless, and immemorable as the fish filter it through their stomachs and gills.
If you choose that, over actually trying and taking control of your world; then yes. My sentiment of pity and disgust; because you were stupid enough to throw it all away, for something so little.
So wake the fuck up Sam. Start living, its your one and only life.
