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I don't think I've told anyone this.
From elementary school to high school, I was relentlessly bullied and gaslighted by other kids into thinking that I was gay. I still struggle with these issues. I used to act out a lot in school (from 1st-11th) to the point where I was getting sent out of class regularly, and I was always known as the class clown. By 2nd grade, kids started bullying me and calling me gay, and I didn't know what the word meant, but I knew it was an insult. None of my teachers defended me because of how disruptive I was, and by 6th grade, I gave up entirely on telling adults about my bullying. By 7th grade, nearly 1/4th of my hair had turned gray from stress, and my parents didn't care about how I was doing because my grades were terrible. I kept up a facade as if I wasn't bothered by my bullies and none of it really affected me. Thanks to genetics, I have a less than average sized dick, and one my classmates noticed in the changing room and then that started adding that into the bullying I was getting. By 8th grade, I genuinely started to believe in the back of my head that I might be gay. I was 13, and I didn't get hard from watching straight porn. I didn't get hard from gay porn either, so I was concerned about what was wrong with me. One day I stumbled on gay Pokemon porn and that got me hard, to my horror. When I got to high school, I didn't consider myself gay, but the bullying still continued. It generally wasn't as bad as middle school though. My grades suffered and I couldn't concentrate, and I was finally taken to a psychologist at the request of my counselor. I didn't tell them anything about my issues, and I ended up diagnosed with ADHD in 9th grade (2011). Moving forward to now, I jack off to irl gay porn and gay Pokemon/furry porn, but I still don't consider myself gay because I'm not romantically attracted to men, and I'm still romantically, but not sexually, attracted to women.
