>>49979682Then just do it man, stop wasting time. Tick tock.
You're taking all this time to talk about wanting to do it, trying to leave some legacy, instead of actually nutting up and doing it. Go, do it. What's stopping you? Come on. Why didn't you do it five minutes ago? Why aren't you doing it right now? C'mon chop chop, the void is waiting for you Sam. Just jump right into its maw and give up! Go find the nearest sharp object and slice yourself open. Just wrap your hands around your neck until you die! C'mon boy. Fucking do it.
You see? You aren't that third category, you're talking to me. Someone who is berating you, and telling you over and over again that this is stupid, that you're choosing a more complicated path, than actually standing up and moving forward. If you were the third category, you wouldn't be in this thread, you wouldn't let it refresh. You would've gone and done it already. You won't though, because you don't actually want to commit suicide. You are in pain and are hurting and want someone to listen, that, I can understand. Just be honest, and upfront.
"I am in pain, and I want to talk to someone, I want someone to help me, please, anyone, help me. I am not okay, and I am not happy."
It's hard to say that, yes, it is; but is it so harder to do than causing physical harm to yourself, and emotional harm to everyone else? It won't bother me one bit, but I'll be damned if no one tells you what the simpler approach to all of this is.
Talk it out, and admit to yourself that you need someone to talk to you, and someone to actually say "Hey, it's okay. You're gonna make it, just stand up."
And you can do that, just by asking, just by continuining to live, to move forward. If you kill yourself, you'll never get that, not today, not tomorrow, not ever.
Don't you feel like you at least deserve that chance at fixing this? Don't you deserve it Sam? Don't you deserve happiness? You may not think so but I know so because we all do.
So live
