>>53915001>Mutual suicideNever. I would never want any harm to come to her. The joke is I kill myself to hopefully see her on the other side.
But anyway, I have a huge number of incidents similar to that. The last straw was actually after that.
I have a friend who always wants to introduce girls to me and wants me to come with him and do things like anime cons cuz I used to do like you said and do things, and when he asked why I stopped going along and refused to meet people, I explained why is complete detail. I explained it all. And a while after that he got high with people and he had a falling out with the other two friends and basically made fun of the stuff I told him. He told me about it because he wanted to make amends with the other two and felt bad, and I can’t say I’m mad, just disappointed. I’ve been right all along. I’m alone. No one can understand me. No one understands where I’m coming from ever. Even when I show them surveys, research studies, psychological experiments ect that show how bad things are, they tell me I’m wrong and argue with me. But funny enough, I’m not an idiot and I figured it out on my own, and spent my whole life telling myself I was wrong. Only to research and read, looking for answers, and it turns out I’ve been right all along.
But even if people did understand, what would change? There’s nothing that can be done about it anyway. People realizing how hard of a hit my quality of life has been hit, so what? Shit still sucks. I would have rather never been born at all, and the fact that I was makes me hate reality. There is just so much about us and or circumstances beyond our control. We are slaves to vertical gene transfer and the world around us. It isn’t fair. It isn’t just. It isn’t right. Why are some born winners and some born losers? The way this world works is rotten.
