>>53916625I did get in really good shape, but it wasn’t enough. Unfortunately there are many things you can’t change and some things you just can’t compensate for. The problem is people need to reciprocate affection. Either I don’t like her or she doesn’t like me. To keep things Pokemon related, I remember Tulip in Scarlet saying
“In my line of work those without both beauty and talent never make it and fade into obscurity. Such people would be better off having neither”
She’s saying what I couldn’t put into words. There’s literally one thing holding me back, and despite any other traits I have that might be redeemable, they mean nothing and can’t make up for my life ruining condition. In a messed up way, my situation has made me realize how just one flaw, one, shortcoming, if severe enough, makes everything else about you worthless.
Either people or wrong about me having great qualities, or they just don’t matter. That frustration and rage is miserable to live with. Even worse because literally everyone thinks it’s funny that the world treats me the way it does.
