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I.. am not really sure how to go about saying this because admitting it is very very strange.

I.. get so fucking intimidated by online pokemon battling. Whenever I win, my heart is pounding, hands are sweaty and shaky, and I get excited like a little kid. And whenever I lose, I flip my shit. Slam my 3DS shut and walk away from pokemon for a few days. This happens in no other game with PvP. TF2, no sweat if I get dominated on a lobby server. WoW, no anger if the Horde dominates. No throwing the pad across the room when the Hitler Miis gang up on me in Mario Kart with 4chan. No fuss if some twinked out rogue camps my corpse in P99.

But fucking Pokemon, I always think twice about battling online, always wonder if my team will get close and then lose, and always worry if someone uses hacked pokemon.

Anyone else like this? Will these feelings ever go away?