>11/26/14 Dear diary,
>I'm so dumb. I'm really really really dumb. Uncle was worried about my asthma so he wouldn't let me go to Mauville alone. I love Uncle, but I feel like me and Ralts would have been fine on our own. You'll never believe what happened when we got to Mauville. As soon as we reached the main square I started looking for the gym because I was so excited to fight Mr. Wattson. I was about to walk in when I saw Anon walking to the gym too, just like in the dream! I was so surprised that I started getting all nervous and my face was getting red. I knew what I had to do, but I was so scared of messing up. I asked him to battle me, and he accepted. It was just me and Ralts, but Anon had a full team of really strong Pokemon. Ralts was knocked out in two turns, and the battle was over. I'm happy that Anon has gotten so strong, but I wish that I could have done better. I wish I was strong enough for him to be proud of me. After the battle I tried to confess my feelings to him, but I got too nervous and started choking up. He had a confused look on his face and that made me even more embarrassed. I told my Uncle that I would challenge the gym another time, and we went back home. I was so lucky to have a coincidence like this happen to me, and I wasted it. Thinking about it now, I don't think this was such a good idea after all. When I first met Anon, I was really confused and worried about the feelings I got around him. I still am in a lot of ways, but I now know that I want to be close to him, even if we are both boys. I don't want him to have to feel confused and sad like I did. It's not fair of me to burden him with these weird feelings, or gross him out with these weird thoughts I have about him. I wish I didn't feel this way, but I can't make the feelings go away no matter how hard I try. I think I'm gonna go to bed now. I hope I don't dream about Anon anymore, for his sake.
Goodnight, diary. Love, Wally
