>>31535653It's difficult trying to be a writer. Some days I feel as though it's dumb as shit because I don't have the drive to write a novel or short story every two days or so like other writers. Other times I feel like I'm being Narcissistic about the whole thing considering I have so many other skills I could be using to get a good paying job like a surgeon or doctor and a girlfriend.
But I just can't do it. I have the skills, but it's not what I want to do. I don't know exactly what I want even as a writer, but I just know I have to keep working and trying to make myself better at it. Maybe because I'll find myself in it or maybe because it'll be something that it my own decision where I can proudly say that I worked for this as bad as the story is. That I did all alone, no one else but me.
But I don't know, it's hard to force myself some days, others I call myself not a writer because I don't write a lot, and some I break down because I don't want to abandon it.
Because it's the only dream I've ever had, before discovering it in high school I was just a zombie who costed through life not caring about anything or anyone really. Without it I would go back and probably die mentally and spiritually again.
Thanks for listening to this rant. Have this picture.
