>>35169751>I don’t want so many people in my businessPsychiatrists virtually hand shit like vyvanse out. You don't need a psychologist or talk-psychiatrist, I have neither.
>don’t want to be turned into an empty shell.Those are antipsychotics, and other antagonists (emotional inhibitors). I'm suggesting you take the opposite, dopamine agnoists (positive-emotional amplifiers), which boost your reactions to things you do like.
> I just pretend to be fine and fucking hate that everytime I go to doctorThis is why they give you antagonists. They want to remove your (imaginary) anger and emotion because they're worried your bipolar or sociopathic so they should blunt your emotion so you won't shoot up a school.
> they always ask if I hate myself They probably think you might have depression, in which case they'd give you antidepresents (seratonin agonists), which have a shit-ton of weird side effects. Depression is caused by low serotonin ("mood", but not emotion, which are separate phenomena), which (if how you describe your issues is accurate) is not a problem you necessarily have.
Go to a local psychiatrist, tell them your issues the way you wrote them in
>>35169560, and say you're curious about long-release amphetamines (vyvanse) because some asshole on the internet told you about it. They'll be happy to oblige for your insurance money 99% of the time, and the whole visit should take ~5 minutes. You can always stop if you don't like the effects, and it won't have any lingering side effects if you do.
