>>37573325it's nice to imagine the end result, but rome wasn't built in a day and a hoarder's room wasn't cleaned in a week, i can't help but feel though once it is completed that it'll really help how i feel, won't be pinned to a corner of my room in bed literally all day every day, sit upright at desk again, ready to be functional and productive
it might be too why i'm in such a mood, i couldn't go out today, i slipped on some stairs and busted my ass yesterday, it's sore but i don't think i broke anything, so i'm trying to take it easy today to make sure nothing's exacerbated, as a result, no outside, and just have no outlet to clear head
again, i wouldn't think i'd actively choose this, i might be and not realize it, but i wouldn't take a look at "lay in bed and do nothing and feel awful" vs "do things and be uncomfortable for a little while and have the satisfaction of actually doing things, gaining resources to do even more things down the line" and say "yep i want to do nothing with myself and screw myself out of any opportunities to enjoy life"
this isn't the first slump i've had either, i've made decisions that threw me in a hospital once, i've made decisions that resulted in my termination from college, but out of all of those, this is probably the least major slump i've been in, it's more of a resource block at the moment, and ideally yeah, this too will pass
