> be me
> coomerfag, but only to normal shit
> love gardevoir with all of my heart, could never bring myself to fap to her
> one day, in the midst of fapping, I see my gardie plush out of the corner of my eye
> feeling embarrased and disgusted with myself, I closed my porn, stopped fapping, and deleted the material i was looking at
> month passes, I now have a routine:
~ turn gardie plush to face the wall when i fap
~ one fap a day, no more. (less is allowed, of course)
~ whatever I fap to, I MUST delete it. doesn't matter if i cooom to it, doesn't matter if I cooom at all, if I view it, I MUST delete it when finished.
> slowly but surely, I make more and more rules, like no fapping on weekends, holidays, november (of course), if there are more than 4 people in de_hause, if there was a test or game the next day, etc.. I did it all to reduce the amount of fap, all to slowly improve myself for a gardevoir plushie on my nightstand.
> years pass, I rarely rind any room to cooom due to school, my rules, and other bullshit.
> hadn't caaam in about 2 months, fucking bullshit.
> so fucking pent up
> finally find my moment
~ i deleted so much i was out of material. instead of quitting when I ran out, my addicted ass just downloaded more, en-masse.
~ stockpiled up for a year's worth of coooming, not even joking.
~ somehow ran out of that as well, the cycle continues
> i had figured two things:
~ 1
> even if i never quit, I have already forced myself to do it so sparingly. I'll be fine as long as I follow ALL of the other rules.
~ 2
> i had run out of material for the 3rd time
~ 2.5
> i HAVE to release today or I'm gonna fucking die
so, while looking for some content to stockpile, i found some gardevoir material.
> with very little hesitation, I slapped so hard to that, cooom everywhere.
> felt disgusted after I realized what i had done
> "well, i wasn;t really acting like myself there, and I;ll be sure not to do it again. besides, it could be worse. i coul-"
~ cont'd
