>>42799324No, not trolling, I sort of knew what fapping was and had a vague idea of how I was supposed to do it thanks to TV but I had literally no privacy to actually try doing it. Imagine for a moment you must share your room with 2 other siblings until you are 19 because the rest of the house is filled up with literal garbage because your dad is a hoarder. The door to this room you are sharing broke and your dad won't fix it because he likes it better being able to keep an eye on you. Said dad is also a control freak and tries his best to micromanage every second of your life, gets mad and yells at you or maybe on a rare occasion hits you when you do something he did not expect, even if it's something benign like stopping at a convenience store to use leftover money from buying a school lunch to pick up a bottle of pop and therefor returning home 1 minutes later than you should have. He is almost 300 pounds of muscle and a bit of fat, but a lot of it is muscle, built like somebody popeye would beat up in old popeye cartoons. He will grill you like a police interrogator if you ask to do anything or go anywhere, or if he just suspects you are up to something. Also he doesn't really love you or your mom, he lost ability to show positive emotion to humans around year 2000 and can only show affection to his cats, which he has around 0 at any given time, and treats better than his actual family.
I had friends (even though
I technically wasn't allowed to have friends because I was not allowed to let other kids into the house and wasn't allowed to go into other kids houses, this rule I broke often) but pretty much every girl did hate me. I was weird, smelled like garbage and cats, and couldn't relate to other kids and their problems well, people thought I was gross and annoying.
