>>43452832You aren't living a life if you're a hostage. Leave him, if possible go to a completely different state/country in case he's an incel and tries to kill you for leaving him. You're only 20, you basically know nothing about being an independent person in the real world until you've held a job/your shit together for about 5 years.
I was in an abusive relationship for 7 years until I was 24 and I basically took what was supposed to be the best years of my growth and independence and let an abusive partner ruin my life and cheat on me.
When I finally got the balls to leave, I was on my own for two years before I met my wife, who I was still with for 2 years before we got engaged. You need to get out before you have a chance to have your own life.
