>>48550817If you are at the point where you are having breakdowns on a biweekly basis, you probably need to talk to a professional, intervene with some sort of medication whether than be medical or recreational, or finally just collapse and don't build back up. There's nothing wrong with surrendering to the Minds Void, I mean more often than not, you go completely insane and wind up dead; but there is the odd chance that you enter it and come out with a new superpower that you have to keep to yourself.
The main thing, is stop being a whiny pussy and complaining about your mental health on 4chan/ No one cares, you'll find more people here that'll actively advise you to commit suicide in annoyance, or sincerity. My offers to you aren't as impersonal or rude; please intervene to prevent your mental health issues, or collapse into them; but please, keep them to yourself and the circle of people who actually care and handle it.
tl;dr. Stop being an attention whore, get some help. Seriously.