>>49429409 Its not what I would call servitude, feeling pity seems inadequate - avarice and regret at once is mostly what I can say about it, with a hint of dread or angst too - but at the same time a rush of sheer disgust almost makes me want to simply say
>"JUST FUCK OFF AND DIE, YOU COMPLETE PSYCHO!" But then it makes me remind myself again how its so unfairly hypocritical to dismiss in contempt such an uncomfortable sight, not after what I once foolishly asked for as an easy excuse to still be such an utter failure as a human being. . .
I would simply parrot a final vid made by JewWario before he made his last 'bathroom break' right now, but learning what he done behind the scenes with that carefree and nice facade of his - I don't feel like doing it, and words of my own fail me to be original in decent enough way. . .
I remember that you said that any pets in 3d are safe from you - and yet I buy that wholesale, despise knowing better not to - but I just need to ask again, just to stop almost dying of heart-attack from the suspense. . .
You will hate me for it, and so do I myself
Have they gotten away with it as usual?
Never wished for real justice to be delivered?
Is it strange that I still want you to not go away, despite being subconciously revolted by your mere pressence?
Am I doing that stupidly selfish thing again when I try to make myself feel better by wanting to know just how worse others have it? And about that last question - I dont think that there ever was even one instance when it actually made me sleep better at all, I just hate being a weirdo - at least one lad annoyed by me ruining his TrickyFox threads numerous times was already correct that I am not anything specjal here, and that's what gets me the most probably. . .
Its too complicated to say of it in brief:
I hate you because you still dare to live,
and I admire it at the same time like a selfish bastard
I hate myself for that more than anything…
