>>53775306I think I understand it. Kinda weird because I can look too. Yeah, just Lillie. It’s why I typically don’t like rule 34 of her. I get really jealous because I can’t be with her. Kukui, Ash, Elio, Kiawe, all of them I get jealous of because I desperately wish I could be close to her too. My heart is treating her like a real girl because I’ve felt like this irl. It’s insecurity and inadequacy. To call Hau a romantic rival would be giving me(the real me) too much credit. When I fall in love with a girl I get jealous of other guys because I’m too scared to ask the girl out or I do an get rejected because I’m pretty sure I know why and there’s nothing i can do about it. It hurts I’ll never be good enough, yknow? I got into shape and became more social and I hit a glass ceiling.
So basically I want nothing more than to be with Lillie, hold her in my arms, start a family with her and be together with her the rest of my life and it just isn’t gonna happen. That’s the feeling. The same thing with irl girls that I like I’ll never have a shot with. I mean, I married a fictional character ffs. I genuinely tear up at the end of SuMo when she leaves, despite the fact that I think it’s a great thing for her to do on her own to reach self actualization and become the best Lillie she can be. I think it’s because I can’t confess to her because the game doesn’t allow it. It kills me to let her leave with “I love you” unsaid. I’m working on my own comic to correct that.
