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I could not fall asleep for the longest time and only got 5 hours of sleep because this was spinning around in my head all night. To be planning such a stream for a week in advance, have a great week, and still go ahead with it anyway. I don't want to dislike anyone in NijiEN, I feel like they all have their positives, so I don't want to ascribe malice to their actions, but the most forgiving assessment I can give is that this was extremely misguided. It's made me paranoid of everyone except for the ones that were streaming at the time and couldn't possibly have been involved. I can't watch them without wondering, do you think like that, secretly? The only evidence I have is what I know of their personalities, so I have to look at each of them and think, could I see this one doing that? Who do I have to sacrifice my opinion of to reach the requisite number of participants? Whether unintentionally or intentionally, Millie has created a situation where people will be distrustful of livers who may not have even participated, who didn't think it was a good idea but weren't streaming. That's not a great thing to do to people who are supposedly your friends. And that's before getting into the fact that, despite hiding behind anonymity themselves, they brought up names of people who definitely weren't even there. That may even be why they felt safe using those names. So again, either they didn't think it through, which is disappointing because it should be common sense, or they were malicious, which I'd really hope they weren't because I'd hate to think any of them could be so two-faced. And yet the question just keeps coming up in my mind, if I had to pick eight of them to be two-faced, who would they be? Which ones would I be okay with no longer liking? Who do I REALLY care for? I didn't want to have to ask myself these questions. I wanted to continue to like all of them.
For the few who actually said anything to disavow this stream, I actually believe them, because that took some bravery. It means having to publicly admit that you disagreed with something one of your friends did. But the chance to do that has already passed, we've seen the tweet saying not to ask about it any further and nobody's going to address it on stream, nor are the viewers going to risk bringing it up. Even if any of the participants do regret it, moving on without talking about it any more is the best move. But because of that, the aura of mistrust will linger, never fully dispelled. We can move on, but we will never be able to forget this.