>>39246780That's because you're unsure of yourself, you feel like you're staring at Pomu from the bottom of a dark pit as she stands above you with the shining rays of the sun engulfing her and making her stand out to you much more brightly.
You have to make a name for yourself as a person, to fully understand your life and how far you've come, the path that took you there and to feel like you can provide your own perspective and experiences to other people who are in need of it. To become a light in the dark for those who are blind and anxious.
Only then you'll be able to see Pomu face to face, and to see the whole world around you and your place in it.