>>74138860good night i will give you a better qrd for contrition
>Meru is severely Meruhera because she blames herself for the world not being perfect>Couldn't accept that Tsunderia collapsing wasn't her fault even if she could rationally accept it, would literally try to see the good in adolf hitler, etc>Eventually goes on a hiatus around February '23.>Finds and utilizes healthy ways to process her trauma>Returns to streaming June '23>Has dramatically better control over her mental state and very high levels of self-awareness. >Prone to yapping about the nature of her old mindset for hours on end along with how much she appreciates postmates for their support>Has a single "breakdown" stream where she basically just vents about the shit hand life dealt her (I think this was like a month in? the stream with the titty)>Says she'll be back on the wagon tomorrow and that's exactly what happened.>Several next several months pass where Meru's generally in a good mental state, streaming regularly.>Has like a dozen collabs streams and they're all kino, plus her fingerskatin' stream>Still prone to anxiety and bouts of low esteem, but she handles them well & never loses confidence in herself.>Lots of yapping about finally being able to look to the future and not be stuck looking at the past>Occasionally talks about how her end as Meru might go; still using twitter, doing a stealth graduation, etc. Nothing was really a surprise & there was never any dramatic shift in her temperament or attitude.>Postmates wish Meru the best and wait patiently for her return>Still regularly in contact via twitter. 