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I need to be real for a moment
Since I've started watching Vtubers no one has hit me quite like shondo. For starters, with all the other vtubers I care about the character and separate that completely from the person behind it. But with shondo it's not the same. I find myself wanting to know more about the person and the separation between person and character gets blurry.
It also feels different. Other VTubers, especially those under companies, feel like they can nicely fit into a "virtual YouTuber entertainer" box. They're all cool in their own ways, but they feel like different flavours of the same food. Meanwhile shondo is just another type of food altogether.
I also have a weakness for mentally unhealthy women. I'm not sure if you guys ever been in relationships with TRULY fucked up women. it's not pretty. bit it's also intoxicating.
make no mistake I've always known I'm fucked up and mentally ill myself but I'm a pro at keeping it contained.
but everything about her makes my sanity spill like nothing else in this world.
Not directly related to her but these threads also for some reason fuck up my brain hard. I start reading into them and it's like I'm being pulled into a whirlpool.
I feel my mental health deteriorating and if I was lying id say I don't know what to do. but I know. but I don't want to leave her... though she does not know who I am and never will. I don't care. I want her
