>>20052334as ironic as it is, i think this is it. work and school have become too much for my to watch her live, i try to show support but I haven't really caught many streams in their entirety the last two weeks, maybe 2 and that's it.
and she's finally free from work too, which sucks.
i'm in too deep, i really love her, i don't know how to cope with knowing i will never meet and date her other than trying to rationalize that she'd want fans to put their livelihood/future before watching her, wishing them the best and appreciating them, but still deep down knowing she does think vtuber fans are betas/undesirable men.
So I think I'm gonna count my losses here and quit the vtubing thing. i'll probably still watch clips as that's the only thing i really have time for anymore. Please support her on her journey buds, she deserves to be in this for exactly as long as she wants to.