>>58964596It means you're not at the end of the road, you hae your whole life ahead of you, so you cannot resign to a life of solitude or long eternally for someone you'll likely never have a chance with.
Live your life in your own reality, your community, your city, your workplace and university, places that you gather at and people within your reach.
An illusion would be to fuel your desire for him and send you down an unlikely path to become his girlfriend or wife. A hope is that you'll be loved and embraced by someone who you deeply admire and look up to, this person doesn't have to be Luca.
That being said, having sex dreams of your oshi is nice, enjoy them.
