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How do I make it if i
>Can't sing because my right ear got damaged, nor can i afford a singing class anyway
>/beg/-tier art skills; good at anatomy, shit at everything else, especially shading and shadow finding. probably the best thing i can be okay at are emotes and chibis as they are the easiest to color.
>probably the only thing i am proudly okay at is traditional animation, i couldn't even learn live2d properly, leaving me to create mouth animations traditionally and stay in PNGchuba state (not like this computer i am using can run vtubestudio anymore)
>can stream only during 'dead hours'
>my only redeeming quality is that i am a kind and patient person who will listen to your problems
>my illness turned out to be a chronicle one so i can't even try finding a job because of it other than being a freelance translator
>no friends, haven't seen my family in years, nor i can afford to see them
I always work on everything alone and I don't have anyone to even talk to about it, but seeing my mutuals being able to afford commissions of whole l2d models truly breaks my heart like I am some kind of a petty child. I think it's probably also me being too slow at everything in comparison to people who can afford commissions. I can't even afford my own computer. I play so many niche games because i've always been too busy taking care of my family and never could afford a high-end pc. I've been throwing applications to Hololive and Nijisanji for a long time, and only NijisanjiEN saw my audition videos multiple times.
I don't know what to do, I don't know how others make even such a basic thing as an audition video, I really feel like i am at loss. I know i will never give up, but i wish there was at least someone who would show me the way.
