>>46528541His 800k stream which is now deleted. The one where he had an actual mental breakdown. It was right after the asmr incident and there's times where I was already in love with him but I think that moment made me more parasocial for him specifically. I wanted to leave him but I felt that I couldn't when he really does care so much about his fans to that extent. It wouldn't feel right after he poured his heart out that much.
>>46534390I typed this exact post, word for word.
I almost did end it all last year but failed, but my oshi's positivity and funny streams and BFE helped me to keep going even if I had no direction in life after that. I feel like I still don't, but I'll try to stay alive for him. He wouldn't want me to give up.