>>36179011Reine to no one
As she gradually showed her true self on stream around december 2021, I felt her content got staler, and her humor wasn't as funny as it was when she was still in her shell. I wasn't really fond of the whole thirsty-lesbian humor and more shitposter nature of her, but dealt with it for a long time since there was still funny parts of her streams, she used to read my comments often and in general liked her as my oshi.
However, as time went on, less of my messages got read and less interactions in general. And that combined with real life calling me back, the feeling that she had favorites that she interacted pretty more often, the feeling she had become less careful about her job because she knew people were gonna eat it up anyways (the problem with schedules, streaming repetitive content, raging more often, individually I didn't care about any of them but they were a sign for me that she was becoming more laid back), and self-awareness about how this vtuber business worked withered my emotional attachment to Reine. Like 3 months ago, I realized I didn't have any interest in any stream for weeks and decided it was time to go, but delayed it to her birthday because perfectionism. That day, the infamous stocked merch and lack of care by cover made me angry and realize they could afford to do stuff like that, low quality merch like based on default models and any shit because the bottom-of-the-barrel people that is the average vtuber watched will buy anything that has his oshi on it. That day I cancelled all the memberships I had, and while I reactivated some after some days, I didn't do it for Reine and consider that the day I officially dropped her. I don't discard that I won't watch her again, I'll do if I learn about an interesting stream, but I know it'll be rare. Maybe then I'll miss her humer.
After that, I concluded this oshi thing is just not my thing and I shouldn't glorify streamers (or people in general) that I don't know over the internet and to. Now I watch anyone I feel like watching at the moment, maybe I became a sort of DD
