>>33892862You basically admitted to having no purpose in life and are throwing away your passion developing romantic feelings towards a person who will never reciprocate them. Not just that but also what's the point of being in love with a person who you have zero chances with and who will make you go seethe in a corner when she starts getting friendly with other guys?
You think you got it all figured out but you're just digging yourself deeper into the hole and kicking the ladder to the side while you're at it.
Basically accepting that you'll never reach higher heights in your life and embracing the mediocrity you find yourself surrounded with.