>>15711040>>15711337Following up on this now that my game is done. I was really down in the dumps about 4 years ago to the point that I figured I would just off myself when my cats die, it wasn't good. It's also hard to find motivation to get out of that hole because even the higher ground doesn't look any better. I guess it took the pandemic for me to realize the only things that make me happy without fail are making others happy. Doing my part to be encouraging to others, stopping to offer help on the side of the road, at the grocery store, or just complimenting people to see if I can get them to smile. I don't really know how I managed it but I basically gaslit myself into being a wholesome 100 big chungus faggot and it's really helped.
Being able to feel gratitude and happiness helped me to enjoy things again, like video games and music. For like the past 10 years those things just existed to get me from sleep to work to sleep, the only times where I didn't have to think about being depressed. Now when something happens that would normally put me into a mental depression coma for a week, I feel like I can actually talk to and convince myself that I am not my emotions.
And the other huge factor was finding IronMouse and convincing myself that I'm a bitch if I don't get off my ass and try to make the world (and by that I mean my limited bubble of social intereactions) a better place. In doing so I only became a better person because of it. So I guess the only thing I can say is try and do what you can to make others happy, not everyone happy. 